Saturday, June 19, 2010

Granddaughter...(s) are wonderful!



Morgan is over today to see ME

her Grandma

She makes me smile!

Her laugh -tickles me!

Her voice-surprises me!

Her eyes-take me in!


As we lay here in bed watching Madagascar and tickling her off and on as we are watching the movie. I am reminded how time flys by! She is 2 now, and I remember her as a baby like yesterday! I don't want her to grow up or get bigger! I would love for her to stay this age.

Of couse,


I said the same thing about her sister Addison, and she is now 6, and I want her to stop growing! I guess that is all a part of being a grandmother you know how fast they do grow up and you just want them to stay little for a little while longer to enjoy it.

So

today,
Morgan is here with me making memories....
and as I look at her adorable face,
I say a little prayer-
Lord, let her not grow up too fast
and
let me enjoy every moment I can!
I love her so much!
I have the most beautiful granddaughter ever!

I am a very blessed
GRANDMa!

Saturday, June 12, 2010

As a woman....


I am reminding myself that you don't have to be a wife to someone before you know your value...
Actually,
isn't God my husband?
So for HIM to tell me being his bride that my value is far beyond that of a pearl makes my heart jump!
I love pearls....
Today I have been struggling with my value,
as I am concerned about my situation of no job, no car and unemployment running out...
What is a woman to do that is of greater value than a pearl?
I know that
I have to trust and believe that HE knows and is working on my behalf.
I have a pearl necklace from my son's wedding and I wear them all the time with the bracelet that goes with it.
I just love the little set
and as I look at them and I think it is okay....
I am so much more valuable that even these.
My soul rest and peace comes......

Sunday, May 30, 2010

At HIS Feet...

I have felt as if I have been here more these last couple of days than ever...

Have you ever felt the need just to stay at his feet and not leave? I mean nothing is going right or wrong, but you just need that comfort?
I do,
and now more
than ever!
Funny thing. I just started to dive in to and read this book about insecurity...Guess what happens? Insecurities cropping up! What is the deal? Here you are learning to be a Secure woman of God and bam!
BUT

I am back at his feet asking...
What am I to do?
How am I to do it?
Is it going to be okay?
Why do I have this fear creeping in?
Why am I feeling insecure?
Have I forgiven everyone that I need to?
To move on that is....
Then...
the light comes back on
and peace comes over me,
as I lay at his feet!
All is well
and
I know...

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Oklahoma Trip

It is always interest going back to Oklahoma to visit whether for pleasure or otherwise.
I love coming home
and
that isn't anything against Oklahoma
it is just
I love home!
(and it could be anywhere but OKLAHOMA)
So to all of you friends in Oklahoma quit asking me as it isn't going to happen!
NO,
I will not move back.
NO, NO, NO
that isn't going to happen.
COLORADO
has first place over
TEXAS
so the answer is
NO
and your asking and telling me that I should will not change things.
Okay?
I loved crossing that county line that states you are now in
TEXAS!
My heart jumps and I start singing country songs!!!
OKAY
maybe
I am exaggerating but I love coming back to my apartment and
I love seeing my granddaughters.
I love visiting Oklahoma knowing that I can come home after the visit.
And you don't have any mountains to look at,
so, if I would ever move from TEXAS,
it would have mountains or beaches are you listening?
Can I hear a AMEN?
So as I am typing from my beloved bed in Texas,
I wish all of you friends in Oklahoma much love and well wishes...
The answer is NO!
NOT, going to happen!
Again, NO!
Remember my EX'S live in OKLAHOMA,
I live in TEXAS
and
like it!!!

Monday, April 12, 2010

Amazing Grace...

I have been reading other blogs and love how others express themselves with words...
I love how words play and make up an emotion or describe an object, setting and/or inner most part of ourselves....


I have also been helping a friend during their traumatic illness and have found that "GRACE" is what I need more of in my life! I am grateful that grace is new each and every morning, for I do truly need it daily and even more than I realize. I have also been learning during this time being selfless, to which I have had issues dealing with. I am not a selfless person (that doesn't mean that I am not a giving person...) have just realized how unselfless I truly am. Confession here ....maybe! I do have a heart that is so full of love and wants to help more yet, at the same, I need to know that I am making a difference. So you see, I am wanting something out of my effort that is not a selfless person...in my eyes! A selfless person doesn't need that PAT on the BACK.... I do at times of helping, when it has gone into weeks of it!
Wrong!!!
I start thinking of my own sacrifice and not what I need to be doing, "unto the Lord if anything else!"

In helping my friend for weeks now, I have learned alot about them and their issues! YOU keep the good and let go of the rest and blow it away with grace! I love this person with my whole heart, and I pray for totally healing in every area of their life. I have wonderful memories to keep with me during my time here and I am sure that there will have many more throughout the years. I know that in my life, I have had to ask for that "Amazing Grace" on a continually bases, to which, I will also ask it for my friend and I will give it to them as unconditionally. Asking God for more grace along the way....to do just that! Just being real here....I am not super woman nor do I think that I am.

I believe that this time in my life that God is doing an incredible work within me, and I have learned that it doesn't matter how old you are, GOD is still working within all of us if we allow HIM in. I thank HIM for his mercy and I am asking for that Amazing Grace to abound! This time has been a healing time for me here on a personal level as well. God is doing something here within my inner heart that only time will reveal the wholeness. More "Amazing Grace"!

So my dear friend, I give you my heart and I pray for that "AMAZING GRACE" for you today!

Sunday, March 14, 2010

A woman inspired...

There is a blog that I get in my email called, "A Woman Inspired" (a place for women who are inspired to be used by him.)

I was reading it and I loved the thought of a woman inspired...to be inspired! Repeat it maybe it will start to ring in your ear like it did mine!

How do we get inspired?

Lets back up and look for the definition as you know me and words...I just love to define them!

Main Entry: inspired
Function: adjective
: outstanding or brilliant in a way or to a degree suggestive of divine inspiration Main Entry: in·spire

transitive verb
1 a : to influence, move, or guide by divine or supernatural inspiration b : to exert an animating, enlivening, or exalting influence on c : to spur on : impel, motivate
2 a archaic : to breathe or blow into or upon b archaic : to infuse (as life) by breathing
3 a : to communicate to an agent supernaturally b : to draw forth or bring out
4 : inhale 1
5 a : bring about, occasion b : incite

intransitive verb
: inhale



Who do you inspire or who inspires you?

I continually get inspired by my friends emails and hearing their hearts...or words on a page! I found a blog that is titled,"Holy Experience"! And the thought jumped out at me, that is what I want...a Holy Experience and would inspire me to be more of a woman than I am. I want to know that in my lifetime that I have inspired someone in doing something that they would have normally not had the courage to do/or just plain and simple would have never done. As I have been inspired to do the same!

From the blog, "Holy Experience" were these words...learning gratitude-that JOY begins with one word: THANKS!

Okay...that is enough to inspire me today! I am grateful, and I thank the Lord for the Joy that only comes from HIM! I thank HIM for loving me in ways, I don't understand nor can even try to understand.

Again I ask, Who do you inspire or who inspires you?

Friday, March 12, 2010


Friday, March 12, 2010

I was reading my devotion from David Wilkerson and the title was:

“God’s treasure is in Earthly Vessels”

I have included the message below as it is something that I believe we all need to think about. I know on a personal level that it is in my weakness that God has and does show up in miraculous ways to lead me closer to him and to my destiny. I have over the last couple of weeks felt that I have really missed the mark in my life. I have made choices over the years that I totally regret and wish I could turn the time back to undo. However, there is not a chance of that so to move on and beyond this moment and with a repented heart …I have to believe that I am God’s treasure in this “Earthly Vessel” that I am.

I have many weaknesses and have failed terribly in my life, but I know that my future is going to be so much more a blessing and full of HIS Fullness! Even in the last couple of months, I know that I have done things that I would not have done given the moment had I not been there at that moment in time…yet, I know that there was a reason for me to go down that path. I came out loving deeply, giving deeply, and hearing God in a way that I haven't heard him before. I cherish the time now knowing that in my weakness…..God shines forth! I am a better person for what I have experienced and now my journey will continue…with a love for God deeper than before knowing that “God’s treasure is really this weak Earthly Vessel I call me”…..I am thankful that he does not give up on me, stays with me, hears my cries, and is unconditionally loving me along the way.
Blessings,
Debbie


“God’s treasure is in Earthly Vessels”

One of the most encouraging Scriptures in the Bible is 2 Corinthians 4:7:
“But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the Excellency of the
Power may be of God, and not of us.” Then Paul goes on to describe those
earthen vessels—dying men, troubled on every side, perplexed, persecuted,
cast down. And even though never forsaken or in despair, those men being used
by God are constantly under the burden of their bodies, waiting anxiously to be God mocks man’s power. He laughs at our egotistical efforts at being good. He
never uses the high and mighty but, instead, uses the weak things of this world
to confound the wise.

“For ye see your calling, brethren, how that not many wise men after the
flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called: But God hath
chosen the
foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak
things of the world to confound the things which are mighty; And the base
things of the world, and things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea, and
things which are not…that no flesh should glory in his presence” (1
Corinthians 1:26-29).

Does that ever describe me! Weak thing—foolish thing—despised thing—a
base thing—not very noble—not very smart. Yet that is his perfect
plan—the greatest mystery on earth. God calls us in our weakness. He puts his
priceless treasure in these earthen vessels of ours because he delights in doing
the impossible with nothing.

I saw Israel Narvaez, former Mau Mau gang leader, kneel and receive Christ as
Lord. It was not just an emotional surface experience—he really meant it. But
Israel went back to the gang and ended up in prison, an accessory to murder. Did
God quit on him? Not for one moment! Today Israel is a minister of the gospel,
having accepted the love and forgiveness of a longsuffering Savior.

Have you failed? Is there a sin that so easily besets you? Do you feel like a
weakened coward, unable to get the victory over secret sin?
But with that
weakness in you, is there also a hunger for God? Do you yearn for him—love him—reach to him?
That hunger and thirst is the key to your victory. That
makes you different from all the others who have been guilty of failing God.
That sets you apart. You must keep that hunger alive. Keep thirsting after righteousness.

Never justify your weakness—never give in to it—and never
accept it as a part of your life.