In a Photo!

With Thanksgiving around the corner,
I seem to think of family and memories of Thanksgiving pasted. This year is a bit different, as I will go to OKC to see mom, Mamadee and Daddybob, I have come to realize, just how time has flown by......they are getting older and now really looking older. It is so important to store the memories through pictures.

I found some pictures of the kids during the holidays and isn't it funny, how time really never seemed to of passed, when you are looking at a photo. I mean, I feel as if I jumped back in time, to the age the pictures was taken, and remember everything I can about that time, yet I know that the boys are years older now...

however...

for that moment, I am back in time, seeing and hearing the world around, in the mind of my memories. How can one grasp the fact, that time runs quickly by, and we need to make as many memories as we can right at this moment!

I found another photo of Grandma and Granddad Evans, they are no longer here, but I can still look at the picture, and hear the sounds of their voice. I can hear Grandma calling Granddad..."Allen", she would say, and him sitting at the table stirring his coffee. I can see the heater all lit up and laying on the couch looking in the kitchen, pretending to not be awake, to hear what they had to say as they quietly stir in the kitchen.
I think now, if only I could have had more time with them yet, the memories are good of what I do have.

Memories of that old farmhouse have never left me, and I could draw you a picture of each and every room filling it with what I remember. Not that it was a house filled with fancy treasures, but it was a home filled with love, warmth, and you loved going there.

I even remember a time, that I was in the tub, and I heard Santa Claus say, "HO HO"! I couldn't get dressed quick enough…ran in and there was a doll and trunk filled with these beautiful clothes. I was told later, that grandma made all the dolls clothes…and I remember going to sleep upstairs by the stairway, and looking at my doll.

There were two rooms upstairs and one was my Aunt Marylou’s room with a closet that I thought was filled with puffy dresses! I loved to play in there… Oh, but that was a secret!
Let me not forget the bathroom off the kitchen with the daddy long leg spiders ….so scary for a young girl to have to use! Granddad would bring me these jumping beans and I would sit and watch them for what seemed to be hours and hours…

Grandma was so fun and full of life, and I learned so much when she was around crocheting, knitting, cooking. I can still see Granddad's smile and hear Grandma's voice calling my name now as I type…. and I just get all warm inside. I see Granddad making his jewelry or a fish lure or showing it to us as we were young.
Awe...then there was a black bowl with the pears in it by the phone in the kitchen. I will never forget how wonderful they smelled, or the fresh bread sitting on the cabinet. I remember.. the swing that I had on the tree, and how I would get to play on a table outside making my mud pies. Boy, those were the days, when we could just be in the fresh air, dream with our imagination, and be in your own little world.

I was so excited when Grandma would take me into town, and we would go to the drugstore for a chocolate coke, mom would get vanilla...Grandma was so proud, and would tell others, "these are my grandkids from TEXAS" I would hear her say, as if that was a big deal... BUT, it really was for her and her friends, to see us visiting.
Boy, I do miss them, and every now and then during the holidays, I remember.
Even through a simple little photo…I do remember!

So with Thanksgiving around the corner, this year make some memories for the child coming to see Grandma, or maybe just the child in you! Take a photo!

Adorable!

...as my granddaughters are getting bigger.

I am just in 'AWE' of them!

I just adore them totally!

They are just adorable and soooo cute!!! There is nothing that I don't love about them... They are a great delight, and one that once they come, over I am beaming like a Christmas Tree with smiles!

This is going to be a great holiday season with them, and sharing what the holidays really mean....

L O V E! Family! Relationships...

I just can't get enough of them!

As I spent sometime with Addison on Monday I see how fast she is growing up. I have this yearning to slow her down...

lets just back up for a year or two...

as I am not ready for her to grow up.

Yet, as she talks to me....

I know that she is so much smarter than I ever was at her age, and I know that she will grow up.

I told her I love her all way to heaven and back, and she told me that she loves me all the way to East Texas and Heaven and back...

NOW that is LOVE!!!

River of Glory
Yes, that is where I went to Church today!
Funny thing .... that I would go to lunch (when I was among the employed) and sit in this churches parking lot and pray, listen to music and sit till it was time to go back to work. I did this for months, spending my lunch time in this parking lot everyday..yet never going in, and there were times when I wanted to just go in and see if I could get someone to pray with me. BUT I never did. Why? You may ask...good question! I don't know! I just never did...yet, I would tell myself someday I am going to come and visit this church.
So guess what? Today was that day!
Thank you Robert for your suggestion!
Wasn't the one that I had thought of to visit but the one that was chosen!
I am so glad! Great music...great word and loved the guy that preached today! He may be a youth pastor but what an anointing to preach a real honest word from the Lord!

so much

Better than the Cafe' Church visited the weekend before...sorry Lord! BUT I still can't believe the hype of that other church..but it is what it is! Bless them and move on!

I have even send in a pray request and for me that is a big deal to trust again ..oh amazing that was the last part of the message trust issues..mmmm...trust! I am sure this blog isn't finished and I am sure that whatever it is that God is working on with me will be continued. However, today I humbly come to the throne of grace...and I ask whatever you are doing Lord, I am here and I am not going to move this time! I am going to listen..and wait..for as long as I have to for you to come and talk to me...I need to hear a word from you! I am waiting!

I will go back to this church again! :)

Getting Real

There are times that I wonder and have thought about what getting real really means. Well maybe looking at the defination of REAL would be a start....

1 : of or relating to fixed, permanent, or immovable things (as lands or tenements)
2 a : not artificial, fraudulent, or illusory : genuine ; also : being precisely what the name implies b (1) : occurring or existing in actuality (2) : of or relating to practical or everyday concerns or activities (3) : existing as a physical entity and having properties that deviate from an ideal, law, or standard — compare ideal 3b c : having objective independent existence d : fundamental, essential e (1) : belonging to or having elements or components that belong to the set of real numbers (2) : concerned with or containing real numbers (3) : real-valued f : measured by purchasing power g : complete, utter
3 of a particle : capable of being detected — compare virtual 3

— re·al·ness noun

— for real 1 : in earnest : seriously
2 : genuine
3 : genuinely good or capable of success (as in competition)

Okay with this stated then lets look at getting seriously genuine.... I like that thought and it is time isn't it to be seriously genuine REAL with yourself and with God! I am ready to let it all go now. What do I have to lose in any of this....I only have him to trust now. Or should I say AGIAN I have only him to trust? After all the years of running where did it let me back to but the feet of Jesus and his face. Again Lord all I can ask is for forgiveness for not trusting that you are the one that can only supply all my needs. You are the only one that can show me true love, happiness and fullness of life. Why Lord do I miss trust YOU of all. Why do I run? Why do I come back?
Let this be a time of getting REAL seriously genuine before you...and never running again! So night as I think on all that you have done for me I am getting really genuine and serious before you ...renew me and I know how you love me and let me never forget YOUR love most of all.

House with no LOVE....

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I have been on a trip …and how would I begin to tell you how my heart grieved upon seeing this for myself. Have you ever gone into a home where a family lives and yet it is stripped of love? Not to say that they don’t love each other …this is different there is no feeling of love in the home at all. Okay, you wonder what in the world are you talking about….You know we do have a spiritual side of life whether we want to believe it or not. I will tell you that spiritually the love within this home isn’t there. Yes, there has been a divorce and yet they are still a unit with the mom living in the home but in the basement. This is large home and I will tell you everyone would have their own space and living downstairs is just as nice as upstairs, of this 7 bedroom 6 bath home. Yet, the feeling of the lack of love is gone and there is a grieving that I felt the whole time I was there. I was praying one night and asked, “Lord, there is such a sadness within this home”…you know it doesn’t matter how much money you make, how big the house is, how beautifully decorated it is…a house without love is just that…empty. No warmth, comfort, joy, .and where is God in all of this? I had many questions and came with I would rather have nothing and love than everything and no love. Easier said that lived right? I do believe that it is the woman of the home that sets the mood, order, warmth, love of the home. Yet with today and both parents working it is difficult just to keep everything organized and flowing….yet, I see that even my son has the love in his home. Which by the way is an apartment as I have…There is great love and laughter…you enjoy being there and you love your visit. I on the other hand will say that I believe that I need to work on my home and the love within it. I know how to create the love, warmth and have it where people love to visit and stay. Can I tell you that as a couple the best things that you can do for each other is to love each other unconditionally….Really! Have a plan for grace, forgiveness and work on it. By the way, it is work…anything worth it is. I pray for this family and what is about to happen in their lives and I pray that much grace be given…Lord, I ask that you open your hands and loving arms and surround these beautiful children, mom and dad. I ask for restoration from within and that your love would fall on them, heal them, save them. Jesus Name! Amen!

Birthday today!!!

Don't you just love the Birthdays? As I get older I have learned that this is going to be the best year ever!!! So I say this again, "This is going to be the BEST year ever! YOU know I believe it! I know it and I can't wait to see how it unfolds! I had a great dinner last night and I am so excited about the future!

Good things are on the way...

You know this week hasn't been the easiest but ...the ending was wonderful! So for now...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! And may there be many more wonderful Birthdays.... I enjoyed last night!....
Not finished with this one....

Cool chill in the air...

I love wearing summer clothes and the easy of my attire...however, there is something about the cooler weather that just gives you that jump start in the morning. Your walk is more brisk, you seem to have a smile, you are not sweating as you around the corner of your daily walk like in the warm summer days.

I must admit that fall may well be upon us whether I am ready or not!

This morning, I have this awarness that there is really change in the air, not only for the seasonal change, but on a more personal level as well. With the knowledge of that awarness comes great excitement for what is just around the corner, and a little saddeness for what is being left behind. I have wondered why a saddeness and excitement, but maybe that is the part of really letting go. My devotional today really nailed it....

and wow

how it was nailed - alreadying thinking about this prior to reading it. God you are so good...


http://Forget What Lies Behind

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE
"…but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead,"
(Philippians 3:13, NLT)

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria
Are you focused on forgetting what lies behind? I know many people don't fully understand what it means to forget the past. They wonder, "How can I forget something that's happened to me?" But one definition of the word forget means to disregard intentionally or to overlook. You have to intentionally disregard your past so that it doesn't keep you from moving forward. That means the good and the bad. Sometimes our past victories keep us from rising higher as much as past failures. If we don't let go of the old, we'll never be able to embrace the new.
It doesn't matter what's happened in your history, it's time to forget what lies behind. Make the choice today to press forward. Trust that God has a better future in store for you. Trust that He's working behind the scenes on your behalf. As you press forward, you will move forward, and you will embrace the life of victory God has in store for you.

A PRAYER FOR TODAY
"Father in heaven, I choose to forget the past today. I don't want anything to hold me back from the future You have prepared for me. I choose forgiveness and ask that You help me by Your Spirit to press forward in every area of my life. In Jesus' Name. Amen"