Drawn ...

Do you ever feel as if you are drawn in........

Hmmmm!

Yes, you could take that in different ways.

BUT

what I am talking about is being drawn in a picture that is real.

I am here Lord for real help me! ARE YOU there?

I feel as if I have been drawn in to this picture that

I am living and I need it to materialize to be real...

to move this to a different perspective.

So that others could really feel,

and

see

what

the real thing is!

AWE

now

are you getting it?

YES....

that is really me!

I am waiting LORD for you to do that MIRACLE in my life...

Just don't let me be

DRAWN in ...

let me live to the fullest!

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Flip-flops

I LOVE them... I love the freedom

I have to wiggle my toes!

It feels good...

to have your flip-flops on....

It makes sense in hot weather...

They come in different colors to coordinate with your outfits...

And some with major bling...

so tell me....WHAT IS NOT TO LIKE about FLIP-FLOP's?

Working thru it....

No JOB

No Car

No Money

but thank you God the RENT is paid for another month!!!

I am working thru it.....

The problem with not having a car that others may not understand that

you are totally totally paralyzed..

you have totally lost any type of freedom you could have had.

And trust me other people do not understand nor do the care!!!

YOU have to deal with it ..

it is your issue not anyone else's...

so there isn't compassion when it comes to having hard luck?

Hardtime?

or

because you believed a lie!

YES...I am still working thru it!

Okay-

on a light note,

let me tell you what I did this weekend.

NO JOKE!!!

OKAY....

 

 

but

I do need to get a car at some point!

YOU know I am here, lonely, just needing a friend to talk to, and I am without a car to go anywhere and my family ...well they are busy!!!

So spending the 4th

I did something to entertain me!

 

I spent the rest of the 4th

on the phone with

c

Mark from CO  my real friend of 30 years...

texting each other talking about the fireworks!

He doesn't have a life either..

i THINK i am dealing very well......

I DO BELIEVE...

I DO TRUST...

I REALLY DO!

Are these

HEART CRIES?

I believe that they can be, depending on what or where you are at

during this time of your life.

As for me?

It is not like when Tinkerbell has you clapping because you believe...

I tear up at that movie as I love stories to bring great hope and miracles!

I am not trying to convince you ...

I really do believe!

I really do TRUST!

Are you asking who?

I believe and I trust in God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob

I love the Lord with my whole heart!

I have known Him since I was a child..

BUT

I have come to a place in my life again,

where I am crying out to God,

with all that is within me....

Those deep heartfelt cries!

I am crying to the one that does mighty,

amazing,

supernatural MIRACLES!

Oh come on..

I know you have been there too!

I am clinging to very hem of HIS garment,

for mercy and grace to abound.

For these five statements of faith

that I have been learning and repeating...

Thank you Beth Moore!

I

God is who he says He is

II

God can do what He says He can do

III

I am who God says I am

IV

I can do all things through Christ

V

God's Word is Alive and Active in Me!

"I'm believing God"

I mean we are all walking a journey on this road of life.

With all the ups and downs, highs and lows, success and struggles.

We are all walking it out, maybe others are walking it better than most,

but we are walking.

Right?

Now in my life, I have to know WHO I am,

more than ever before..

Personal bits...

I have had this personal relationship with God for years.

Since the age of 9.

During the years past,

I have fallen' flat on my face,

stumbled,

been splattered,

been lied to,

rejected,

abandoned

and

made choices that I should have never ever gone there,

In spite of it all...

I know God loves me,

Is for me,

has my best interest at heart,

hears me,

wants to be with me,

likes me,

loves me more...

with

all the good and bad,

all my faults,

with all the flops,

messes and or misses

and my even my talents and gifts that I shelf...

YET...

HE loves me no matter where I am at...

I know that he is for me even in spite of "ME"!

I can have stinky thinking and HE loves me,

I can make a wrong choice, he loves me,

I can make right choices and

HE loves me!

He is for me and is my number one fan!

He is cheering for me daily!

HE knows me more than I know myself...

HE has my NUMBER!

I believe in HIM,

I believe in HIS word!

I know HE will come to help me!

I trust HIM!

HE is faithful!

Granddaughter...(s) are wonderful!

Morgan is over today to see ME

her Grandma

She makes me smile!

Her laugh -tickles me!

Her voice-surprises me!

Her eyes-take me in!


As we lay here in bed watching Madagascar and tickling her off and on as we are watching the movie. I am reminded how time flys by! She is 2 now, and I remember her as a baby like yesterday! I don't want her to grow up or get bigger! I would love for her to stay this age.

Of couse,


I said the same thing about her sister Addison, and she is now 6, and I want her to stop growing! I guess that is all a part of being a grandmother you know how fast they do grow up and you just want them to stay little for a little while longer to enjoy it.

So

today,

Morgan is here with me making memories....

and as I look at her adorable face,

I say a little prayer-

Lord, let her not grow up too fast

and

let me enjoy every moment I can!

I love her so much!

I have the most beautiful granddaughter ever!

I am a very blessed

GRANDMa!

As a woman....

I am reminding myself that you don't have to be a wife to someone before you know your value...

Actually,

isn't God my husband?

So for HIM to tell me being his bride that my value is far beyond that of a pearl makes my heart jump!

I love pearls....

Today I have been struggling with my value,

as I am concerned about my situation of no job, no car and unemployment running out...

What is a woman to do that is of greater value than a pearl?

I know that

I have to trust and believe that HE knows and is working on my behalf.

I have a pearl necklace from my son's wedding and I wear them all the time with the bracelet that goes with it.

I just love the little set

and as I look at them and I think it is okay....

I am so much more valuable that even these.

My soul rest and peace comes......

At HIS Feet...

I have felt as if I have been here more these last couple of days than ever...

Have you ever felt the need just to stay at his feet and not leave? I mean nothing is going right or wrong, but you just need that comfort?

I do,

and now more

than ever!

Funny thing. I just started to dive in to and read this book about insecurity...Guess what happens? Insecurities cropping up! What is the deal? Here you are learning to be a Secure woman of God and bam!

BUT

I am back at his feet asking...

What am I to do?

How am I to do it?

Is it going to be okay?

Why do I have this fear creeping in?

Why am I feeling insecure?

Have I forgiven everyone that I need to?

To move on that is....

Then...

the light comes back on

and peace comes over me,

as I lay at his feet!

All is well

and

I know...