Oklahoma Trip

It is always interest going back to Oklahoma to visit whether for pleasure or otherwise.

I love coming home

and

that isn't anything against Oklahoma

it is just

I love home!

(and it could be anywhere but OKLAHOMA)

So to all of you friends in Oklahoma quit asking me as it isn't going to happen!

NO,

I will not move back.

NO, NO, NO

that isn't going to happen.

COLORADO

has first place over

TEXAS

so the answer is

NO

and your asking and telling me that I should will not change things.

Okay?

I loved crossing that county line that states you are now in

TEXAS!

My heart jumps and I start singing country songs!!!

OKAY

maybe

I am exaggerating but I love coming back to my apartment and

I love seeing my granddaughters.

I love visiting Oklahoma knowing that I can come home after the visit.

And you don't have any mountains to look at,

so, if I would ever move from TEXAS,

it would have mountains or beaches are you listening?

Can I hear a AMEN?

So as I am typing from my beloved bed in Texas,

I wish all of you friends in Oklahoma much love and well wishes...

The answer is NO!

NOT, going to happen!

Again, NO!

Remember my EX'S live in OKLAHOMA,

I live in TEXAS

and

like it!!!

Amazing Grace...

I have been reading other blogs and love how others express themselves with words...
I love how words play and make up an emotion or describe an object, setting and/or inner most part of ourselves....


I have also been helping a friend during their traumatic illness and have found that "GRACE" is what I need more of in my life! I am grateful that grace is new each and every morning, for I do truly need it daily and even more than I realize. I have also been learning during this time being selfless, to which I have had issues dealing with. I am not a selfless person (that doesn't mean that I am not a giving person...) have just realized how unselfless I truly am. Confession here ....maybe! I do have a heart that is so full of love and wants to help more yet, at the same, I need to know that I am making a difference. So you see, I am wanting something out of my effort that is not a selfless person...in my eyes! A selfless person doesn't need that PAT on the BACK.... I do at times of helping, when it has gone into weeks of it!
Wrong!!!
I start thinking of my own sacrifice and not what I need to be doing, "unto the Lord if anything else!"

In helping my friend for weeks now, I have learned alot about them and their issues! YOU keep the good and let go of the rest and blow it away with grace! I love this person with my whole heart, and I pray for totally healing in every area of their life. I have wonderful memories to keep with me during my time here and I am sure that there will have many more throughout the years. I know that in my life, I have had to ask for that "Amazing Grace" on a continually bases, to which, I will also ask it for my friend and I will give it to them as unconditionally. Asking God for more grace along the way....to do just that! Just being real here....I am not super woman nor do I think that I am.

I believe that this time in my life that God is doing an incredible work within me, and I have learned that it doesn't matter how old you are, GOD is still working within all of us if we allow HIM in. I thank HIM for his mercy and I am asking for that Amazing Grace to abound! This time has been a healing time for me here on a personal level as well. God is doing something here within my inner heart that only time will reveal the wholeness. More "Amazing Grace"!

So my dear friend, I give you my heart and I pray for that "AMAZING GRACE" for you today!

A woman inspired...

There is a blog that I get in my email called, "A Woman Inspired" (a place for women who are inspired to be used by him.)

I was reading it and I loved the thought of a woman inspired...to be inspired! Repeat it maybe it will start to ring in your ear like it did mine!

How do we get inspired?

Lets back up and look for the definition as you know me and words...I just love to define them!

Main Entry: inspired
Function: adjective
: outstanding or brilliant in a way or to a degree suggestive of divine inspiration Main Entry: in·spire

transitive verb
1 a : to influence, move, or guide by divine or supernatural inspiration b : to exert an animating, enlivening, or exalting influence on c : to spur on : impel, motivate
2 a archaic : to breathe or blow into or upon b archaic : to infuse (as life) by breathing
3 a : to communicate to an agent supernaturally b : to draw forth or bring out
4 : inhale 1
5 a : bring about, occasion b : incite

intransitive verb
: inhale



Who do you inspire or who inspires you?

I continually get inspired by my friends emails and hearing their hearts...or words on a page! I found a blog that is titled,"Holy Experience"! And the thought jumped out at me, that is what I want...a Holy Experience and would inspire me to be more of a woman than I am. I want to know that in my lifetime that I have inspired someone in doing something that they would have normally not had the courage to do/or just plain and simple would have never done. As I have been inspired to do the same!

From the blog, "Holy Experience" were these words...learning gratitude-that JOY begins with one word: THANKS!

Okay...that is enough to inspire me today! I am grateful, and I thank the Lord for the Joy that only comes from HIM! I thank HIM for loving me in ways, I don't understand nor can even try to understand.

Again I ask, Who do you inspire or who inspires you?

Friday, March 12, 2010

I was reading my devotion from David Wilkerson and the title was:

“God’s treasure is in Earthly Vessels”

I have included the message below as it is something that I believe we all need to think about. I know on a personal level that it is in my weakness that God has and does show up in miraculous ways to lead me closer to him and to my destiny. I have over the last couple of weeks felt that I have really missed the mark in my life. I have made choices over the years that I totally regret and wish I could turn the time back to undo. However, there is not a chance of that so to move on and beyond this moment and with a repented heart …I have to believe that I am God’s treasure in this “Earthly Vessel” that I am.

I have many weaknesses and have failed terribly in my life, but I know that my future is going to be so much more a blessing and full of HIS Fullness! Even in the last couple of months, I know that I have done things that I would not have done given the moment had I not been there at that moment in time…yet, I know that there was a reason for me to go down that path. I came out loving deeply, giving deeply, and hearing God in a way that I haven't heard him before. I cherish the time now knowing that in my weakness…..God shines forth! I am a better person for what I have experienced and now my journey will continue…with a love for God deeper than before knowing that “God’s treasure is really this weak Earthly Vessel I call me”…..I am thankful that he does not give up on me, stays with me, hears my cries, and is unconditionally loving me along the way.
Blessings,
Debbie

“God’s treasure is in Earthly Vessels”

One of the most encouraging Scriptures in the Bible is 2 Corinthians 4:7:
“But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the Excellency of the
Power may be of God, and not of us.” Then Paul goes on to describe those
earthen vessels—dying men, troubled on every side, perplexed, persecuted,
cast down. And even though never forsaken or in despair, those men being used
by God are constantly under the burden of their bodies, waiting anxiously to be God mocks man’s power. He laughs at our egotistical efforts at being good. He
never uses the high and mighty but, instead, uses the weak things of this world
to confound the wise.

“For ye see your calling, brethren, how that not many wise men after the
flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called: But God hath
chosen the
foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak
things of the world to confound the things which are mighty; And the base
things of the world, and things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea, and
things which are not…that no flesh should glory in his presence” (1
Corinthians 1:26-29).

Does that ever describe me! Weak thing—foolish thing—despised thing—a
base thing—not very noble—not very smart. Yet that is his perfect
plan—the greatest mystery on earth. God calls us in our weakness. He puts his
priceless treasure in these earthen vessels of ours because he delights in doing
the impossible with nothing.

I saw Israel Narvaez, former Mau Mau gang leader, kneel and receive Christ as
Lord. It was not just an emotional surface experience—he really meant it. But
Israel went back to the gang and ended up in prison, an accessory to murder. Did
God quit on him? Not for one moment! Today Israel is a minister of the gospel,
having accepted the love and forgiveness of a longsuffering Savior.

Have you failed? Is there a sin that so easily besets you? Do you feel like a
weakened coward, unable to get the victory over secret sin?
But with that
weakness in you, is there also a hunger for God? Do you yearn for him—love him—reach to him?
That hunger and thirst is the key to your victory. That
makes you different from all the others who have been guilty of failing God.
That sets you apart. You must keep that hunger alive. Keep thirsting after righteousness.

Never justify your weakness—never give in to it—and never
accept it as a part of your life.

I feel as if I am a the most blessed mom to have had, two great boys born in the same month. My youngest was 24, on the 4th of February, and my oldest will turn 30. on the 26th of February.

As I was writing about my oldest birth, I realized that both of these births were so different. Oh let me tell you, I had great deliveries…I have nothing to complain about on that end. Interesting thing is that on bring both of the boy’s home that it snowed. So 6 years later after Sean, bring Seth home it snowed the day he came home too….
BUT the births were completely different...as the boys are very different in personality, strengths, and gifts.

Since Seth just had his birthday and I was in Colorado I thought that I would start with him. As with all my children I had a doctor’s appointment the day of delivery and when the doctor told me that I was dilated with Seth. I told him that I would see him that evening. You just know….and it worked for me every time. We decided to take the other two kids Stephanie, and Sean to out to eat knowing that I would be in the hospital that night. When we started dinner my labor pains were 10 minutes apart and upon leaving they were 4 minutes apart. Well…with the third child you should have plenty of time to get to the hospital right?
YES, and with delivering the kids (Stephanie and Sean) to the grandparents we then rushed to the hospital.

Now with Seth I was dilated to 7.5 cmm upon arriving to the hospital and just in time for an epidural to which I asked for. I had heard that it was heaven and I wanted to experience heaven for this delivery. Yet it did delay my delivery about an 1 hour in total…I know! I will never complain about my great deliveries. Seth was born and was his dad’s first son so he was a proud dad. Scooping Seth up and out the door to show everyone that was waiting in the waiting room. Seth was a beautiful baby and all he would do as he grew was smile….My smiling boy, and there are times that I pray that –that smiling boy would come back. Seth is now 24 and out of the Army…I am so proud of him and I know that he will do great once he figures out what he needs to do. I pray for him daily as he has been staying here with me and helping me when I am not here with my pets. I am very proud of him and how he is handling my affairs for me.

Now…..

My oldest son’s birthday is Friday, and as he turns 30- a moment of emotions floods my mind. Wow! Thirty years ago, a single, unsure, scared mother to be was getting ready to have a baby boy. I will never forget the morning; I had a doctor’s appointment. I went in to the usual office visit when you are 8 months along and to my great surprise my doctor stated…oh my we are dilated and if you would like I will meet you at the hospital by noon, and we can get this boy on his way.

I was excited and scared at the same time. I worked at E. F. Hutton and a friend of my Sandy was going to help me deliver. Well let’s say that she needed this as much as I did because she was married without children. This was her attempt to check it all out and we just became great friends at work and church. We would laughed all the time at work, to the point of tears running down our cheeks, so she was a great candidate for helping me birth with laughter.

I placed my phone calls after the doctor’s visit to Sandy, mom and met mom at my grandmothers to then go to the hospital. I thought that it would be good to have other support.

I started thinking about the baby shower that I was to have with E. F. Hutton that night and I would be missing….funny the little things you remember as you jot down memories. I had never had a shower and was looking forward to it.

Upon arriving at the hospital, seeing Sandy smiling as I walked in and we waited to get into a room. A room of several beds-like in a recovery room…not a single room that you stay in.
I remember we laughed telling stories or looking at magazines until my first real pain. I remember looking at her (Sandy) and stated, “Oh my that wasn’t very fun”….but through the laughing- I got through it and it was two other pains… and Sean was born! GREAT delivery into this world as I only had 45 minutes of labor.

I look at Sean now and he is a wonderful son, father, and husband, and I am so proud of him. Not sure how much of an influence I had on him other.\, than I made a choice to have him, loved him, and taught him about the Lord. I would have never had it another way. As he has brought me such joy, just being his mom.

So as I reflect on the delivery…knowing that his birthday isn’t till Friday, I have to say Happy Birthday Sean. You changed me into the woman, and mom that I have become over the years. Thank you for being a great son, father and husband to not only me but to your family. I could never express to you how very proud I am of you!

I HAVE the best boys and I know that they are going to do great things over the next year and years to come.

I love you both!

MOM

Valentine's Day!

Valentine's Day's....I just love Valentine's and the thought of romance, love, and being with someone that enjoy's spending time with you delights my soul! And someday I will have it all with breakfast in bed, Belgium Waffles, Whip Cream and yes, Strawberries!

I love and have always love the thought of romance and being in love with someone that just takes your breath away! The fun of planning something so special that even they can't believe it. OKAY...I am a romantic and I plan to be for the rest of my life here on earth. BUT that is okay! Someday I will be with the one that I love on all the holiday's and it will be a dream come true. To share the best parts about you on special days. Even if it is just breakfast in bed with some fun of whip cream and strawberries!

So TODAY...give to the one you love if they are close or if not send them a message with kisses and hugs....and always remember the LOVE!

Unconditional/Selfless Questions

How many of us can say that we are truly unconditional or selfless? I have thought this over the last months and have wondered about myself, which if I would defined selfless: having no concern for self: unselfish: not selfish-Generous. Okay, two definitions here but you are getting the point by now. As for the definition of unconditional: not conditional or limited; absolute, unqualified. (unconditional surrender or unconditional love)

I am bothered, as I would say that I am selfless in doing things not having expectations or wanting for myself yet, that would be a lie, as I am truly not a selfless person. I desire to be and would like to be, but I do have hopes and desires and dreams that I believe are real and what I would like. I feel that I do selfless acts of kindness, poured out of my love and heart, yet when there is not acknowledgment then that is not a selfless motive on my part is it? I am having trouble with this one so bare with me. I must mention here that I know what it like not to have, to give up stuff, and do without or say survive...to have things taken away and deal with it. I know! So that isn't the issue here...been there done that and doing it! I am struggling this morning and maybe it is all emotions and should be ignored however just let me finish!

I desire to be unconditional yet in my flesh, I truly can't can I? Maybe that is the real issue here is there is my flesh that we are talking about and my mind wants to, my spirit wants to, but my flesh rises up and does not truly want to. Is that so? I feel as if I am struggling with this -this morning and need some wisdom here on this. So for those of you that are selfless, and unconditional let me know your wisdom, knowledge and give me the understanding that I am seeking on this.

I want to do what is right and live right and I know that I have needs, wants and desires. At 52 you realize that life is short and you can't afford to make mistakes or not live for the moments. It is what it is? Thanks for listening!